My muse is a sadistic little bitch, no point in sugar coating it.
I have plenty of things to do, and she is going off on her own little world, new idea after new idea, and royally messing up my thought process. Problem though with her, is when I switch focus to something she has been playing with, she instantly draws ideas to something else, and I’m left fumbling around working several projects at once, and getting no where whatsoever on them, due to the ineptitude of concentration.
At the very least her getting me wanting to draw is coming along fairly smoothly, and I’m thoroughly impressed with how well my drawing has come even in the past 6 months. I would show off a side by side comparison, but honestly, I took down the stuff on this blog from before, because I’m now ashamed of the quality. I’ve done nothing but rough sketches, but am happy with it, my technique is getting better, and the vision as well. The eventual goal, is to get into practice well enough, and put online a webcomic or graphic novel, we shall see if my muse lets me.
The Harbinger. You are my bane and you are my love. The beginning and the end were beautiful, but the middle nothing but mush. So muse, what pray tell do you want to do about it? Complete rewrite, from a completely different angle, keeping the high points, and removing the mush. It can be cleaned up into another story later. Problem with The Harbinger and my muse is this: I’ve been working so long on this world, had so many rewrites, and story ideas, that it’s not just a novel, it’s an entire saga. I have about 8-9 stories that I want to tell in this world, and just can’t get the first one out. But it is coming, slowly, although I can’t say surely.
I’ve found myself focusing on minimalism in computing, and think it may be helpful to me. Not only in computing, but in life. If you take a look at my current work area, it is too much stuff going on. Now, while here I can’t do anything about it, I am moving very soon, and I’m debating changing how I have everything setup. I want a room where it’s bare minimum, where I can create, and I’m honestly thinking that I will attempt to do so. We already know we will have a room that is just set for relaxing, and reading, with the only technology being music in there. I may try to turn the extra bedroom into a creative den, but not be a clutter bomb.
Music. My muse is getting further wanting to get back into music. I love music, it’s very well known, and I want to get back to playing. Problem is always time. It may be time however to sit down, shut up, suck it up, and make the time. No guarantees there.
In more lines of artwork, my muse wants to really start painting. That’s another of my main reasons getting back into drawing. If I can get my creative room done, shouldn’t be a problem to also add in to do some painting, but that issue is more than just time, that one gets involved in lots of money that I’m being too frugal to spend.
I’ve noticed I’m slowly shying away from video games, especially MMO’s. I think it’s mainly because I’m wanting to spend more time in my own imaginary worlds, and not another. I’ve had more fun going back to the old school style, than I have in the latest generic grindfest. I doubt I’m moving on, I’m still a gamer, but there is much more to do.
There are of course tons of other projects on hand that she wants to do and try, and it leaves me feeling odd and overwhelmed. I expect a knock down, drag out fight shortly, and maybe the little sadistic one and I can come to terms with each other and work loads.
